I feel no matter how honest I am I just end up hurting you. I hate feeling and knowing I am breaking your heart. Because it is the last thing I ever want to do. I love you more than I even love myself. But I feel if I just end it all then your suffering will end as well. It hurts to breathe and even if its taking me forever to write this. I feel you might be happier. Your suffering will end with me. I deserve whatever pain destiny brings my way. I just want you happy. I feel like you are going to leave me and I will loose your love. That alone aches like hell. You said you believed me but I guess its alright if you do not. I just want you to know I love you will all my heart even if you stop loving me.
